Pay No Attention to the Blogger Behind the Curtain

by SimplySharpe on December 4, 2009

Once Upon a Time I have been writing almost everyday since I was very young. I started when my  Stepmother gave me one of the best birthday presents ever. I was 7 years old and my parents were in a War of the Roses style divorce. The present was a book filled with blank pages to write in and a black and white cover which you could color in yourself. I remember drawing and writing while locked in my bedroom.

I wish I still had that book today. I can only imagine what kind of interesting detail I would have about during those years. Surely, there was some mention of why this woman was buying me a book when my parents divorce was barely finalized and she was already engaged to my father? Maybe I wrote about the time my brothers handcuffed me to the stairs and left the house for several hours? I could not tell you because I eventually destroyed the book.

Somedays I have vivid memories of my tumultuous childhood and feverishly write (or type) whatever comes to my mind. I have known since the day I received that empty book and after keeping a journal for over 20 years that I wanted to be a writer. When I started my first blog in 2005, I knew this was a great way to express myself and actually publicize some of my writing. Unfortunately, I was informed that the majority of my content was not necessarily the stuff Corporate dreams were made of. My day job was getting in the way of my dream job. I was approached by management and told to keep my thoughts to myself (urgh).

Impossible. I started writing mostly on MySpace ignorantly thinking they would never find me if I hid my name. In 2006 my alter ego, Randomly Fabulous, took over and created a page on Blogspot. I loved her! She was the me I could not be at the time. Always honest, whip smart and ridiculously fabulous. I never paid a lot of attention to other bloggers or the blogs that told you how to blog. I found that distracted me from what I really wanted to do which was write and be me. I connected with my audience without any promotion or attempt to monetize the blog. I felt so liberated with my writing. I loved feeling like a part of me was out there even if it was semi-anonymous. I always used the same nicknames like calling my little brother Punk Rock or talking about The DJ. It could have been called Randomly Obvious. I didn’t care. I just loved writing.

I have every post saved, but sadly it’s not live anymore. I began to fear The Man. The industry I was working in at the time was very volatile and it was suggested that I take down all social media sites or make them private. I often told people my stalkers were to blame for the impulse removal of years worth of writing, but the truth is I did not want to lose my job or potential future endeavors. Thanks to the economy my job was eliminated anyway. It left me free to write whatever I wanted. Sort of. I still have to think about what future employers or perspective clients might think.

Which leads me to the point of this post (in case you wondered if I had one)… I have had a lot of conversations this week with people that want to know why I am not “writing” and I started to feel like some disclosure was necessary. The truth is, I am writing. Always. I am just not posting. Somewhere in the past year my neurosis took over and I feel a little lost inside myself. It’s not writers block because the words come to me everyday. It’s personal.

I’m dealing with what life has handed me in a less public manner (which totally sucks). Lately, most of my writing has revolved around darker days. I choose not to write a series of Debby Downer posts on here. I have bad days. I have bad months. I have bad breath first thing in the morning or after eating Sushi. I am not a bad writer though because I take a post pause for an undefined amount of time. There are no rules despite what you read on other blogs. Post frequency is entirely up to the author. On my professional or freelance writing projects, obviously I recommend posting more.

Thank you to all that have reached out! I am so flattered that people enjoy my writing and care enough to ask for more. I am a notorious people pleaser, so ask and you shall receive. This was just little Friday night share for those that care.

xo

{ 10 comments… read them below or add one }

Darryl Coleman December 4, 2009 at 9:03 pm

I found your site on Google and read a few of your other entires. Nice Stuff. I’m looking forward to reading more from you.

Jeff Turner December 4, 2009 at 9:14 pm

There are no rules.

Darryl Coleman December 4, 2009 at 9:22 pm

Would you be interested in exchanging blogrolls links with my site? Please email me if you are interested

SimplySharpe December 4, 2009 at 9:43 pm

None that I can’t make up as I go along.

Chris December 10, 2009 at 1:10 am

This was a really great update, Marissa. I can relate to everything here. I have journals in a trunk dating back to when I was 15. With regards to ‘blogging’ I’m still trying to find my identity. If I had it, I would definitely be posting as much as someone like Chris Brogan. My identity crisis involves juggling me, insurance-me, web designer-me, musician-me, and of course wearing the dad and husband hats. I think Jeff is right, there are no rules. hm? Well, it is late and I’m tired. You’ll see me around here quite a bit more as I’m also taking a monster step back from twitter… I feel pretty Nsync (like the boy band, get it?) with whats going on online and I am starting to feel like twitter is simply fools gold. Rambling complete. Commence bed… cheers.

Rowan Artemis December 10, 2009 at 2:05 pm

I’m SO proud of you for posting this! I know it’s been hard. I know it’s still hard.

I’m working on implementing your suggestions for my massage business because I’m so grateful you took time out of your crazy, hectic life to help me. Plus, you’re one smart lady. ^.~

Thanks for being fabulous, and thanks for being my friend. ^.^

SimplySharpe December 10, 2009 at 5:28 pm

Chris,

Thank you for the kind words. I like seeing you around! The Big T has it’s time and place, but can also be a distraction. I’ve been very impressed with the web designing-you and ready for the musician-you to play live. Did you ever get the M-box?

Lastly, I think since you went there… it’s only fair that you do some boy band dancing on your next Atlanta Insurance Live vid or wear those leather pants you talk about to #punkATL 😉

SimplySharpe December 10, 2009 at 5:44 pm

Rowan,

It’s my pleasure to help YOU with anything! Anytime.

My “crazy hectic life” is just more fuel for the fabulous.

I’m pretty damn thankful to have you for a friend as well. xo

Crystal Silver December 12, 2009 at 9:06 am

I know exactly how you feel, Marisa. I have gone through similar transitions over the past years. But things are gonna take off for me soon, and the same is true for you. The future is now. 🙂

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